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{December 5, 2008}   Bleed of faith
…I’m a seekers
…who dream something true
…I’m full of love to be embrace
… To be notice by somebody You.…I knew from the start,your the one special to my heart
…I longed and even prayed ,for you to come along;
…To fill the emptyness i hide it inside,
…Still,my tears fallen from me seeing you through.

…Tell i met my faith to be stronger you make
…Time has come my way,hoping there was you to see;
…Things great us worlds can be
…But just its a dream of me.

…My faith seek to yours
…Not the unfaithful cores
…You’re a bicha bitch
…I don’t gotcha good.

…You bleed my faith,when you flee to hold
…My pains you poured,it makes me worst,
…Torn was embed to me now can’t get up each time i mourned
…I think i deserved to be bleed like this.



{December 5, 2008}   Tears On Me

why I’d be like this
Can’t take the place
That Im supposed to be with
Is it the journey hate me?
Or the purpose that i cannot be reach.

Am I a damn to deserved this
What a certain place fall apart from me
Rain that falls from the sky above
It was then…
The tears on Me.



{December 5, 2008}   I Learned

…There’s a mistake
…That i have made
…Some chance I just threw away,
…Some roads,I never should’ve taken,
…Been some signs i didn’t see
…hearts that i hurt needlessly…And some wounds,
…that i wish i could have one more
…Chance to mend
…But it don’t make no difference
…The past can’t be rewritten

…Some starts that have some bitter endings
…been in bad times that Ive been through
…I wish i could do all over again
…To make a change



{December 5, 2008}   Boredoms
… i was sitting in my room
… i hung up my head and sigh;
… i was all alone nobodys on
… i knew it would be happen for me for now on…. it’s hard to see myself being all alone
… i felt all my heart breaks in apiece of time
… i was standing at the crossroads of my life
…Think God their’s a choice to be made of,
… To remind His with me all the time

… i think I’m gonna have to hurt
… i think I’m gonna have to cry for this
… im just a girl easy to soften my eyes
… and let go of things that i’ve loved to get to other side.

… God show me the way
… To be called his child
… Though my sins lingers on me
… His love never dies.

… i saw the love
… that i prayed
… still waiting him all the time
…til i get on by.



{December 5, 2008}   Stary Stary Night

stary night close from heaven above
i might gazzing tonight;
to catch your bright
and fell me warm inside.

isaw many as i can,
as i cought the constellation of mine
and suddenly cut my burden in a moment of time
when i saw your beauty that make my own heart smile.

i tried to count one by one
Just to ease the lonesome one
different colors and different size
as i passin’ goes by.

i broadend my mind
Just to thank you for having me smile
were apart from mile to miles;
then i can call you mine.



{December 5, 2008}   I’m Not Strong Enough
I’d come to believe my inner strength
That somday I can’t rely in just a dream
But somehow the hardships are within;
To trick me for good or something
Yet I wasn’t strong enough
Even I can’t flee to drown
When times got me wraped
I’ve been sitting all alone
Being adjutant couldn’t get help enough,
I can’t resist to get my strength on
Good or bad I’d leading so long
Though it’s obviously
I’m not strong enough to go by my own.


et cetera